Everybody's selfish i know.
I behave that way, not because i'm sarcastic or whatsoever.
I tried to believe.
I really tried to.
But in the end.

I don understand why some things are hard to say.
I always tried to think in yr shoes.
Whenever i get so angry or upset.
But i always give in to your reasons.
Believing that you're in a tough spot.
And i try to give u time to settle things out.
Maybe, it'd better.
but. it didnt.


What do you really take me as?
Accompanion? Friend? "soul-mate" ? or what?
What's the status and defi of "mxxx and Bxxx"
Can u say it?
I doubt so.
I have alot to say, really alot.
But i believe , whatever i say, will change nothing.
Cos it will always stay like that.


What exactly do u wan?
Tell me, and perhaps i could grant you yr wish.
I'm tired of all this, not just you.
We just keep draging and dragging on.
What good does it do, for the both of us.
nothing . . .


You are always holding on to the VIP pass,
you should know that clearly.
I treat u better than anyone else.
I asked for nothing.
No status, no return for anything, not yr love.
Now, i'm starting to think.
Is it all worth it?

When i was suffocating on this strange yet familiar relationship.
I could do nothing.
Should i throw in the towel, or shd i learn to keep holding on?
I know u are feeling terrible too.
But i've always been caring for u. loving you, taking care of u.
I'm tired.
cos nothing i do, seems to pay off.
cos what are we?
i dunno




When i look into your eyes, the expression that used to exist.
was no longer there.
When the lips touch, they no longer feel the same.
When i hold u, u walk away.
What does all this says.
It should have been clear to me all these while.
perhaps i tried to pretend.