all along.
I thot we were doing pretty fine.
I thot everything was good and okay.
I thot.

I really don understand.
was it me pretending,
or is it euu hiding it too well?
or is it the both of us trying to run away from it.

That i didnt realise,
euu were feeling so terribly pain and miserable deep down in euu.
I know it has always been hard on euu,
i know and i understand.
I truly truly understand what euu are feeling and going through.

I'm trying very hard to be a perfect lover for euu.
I'm trying my hardest to prove how much i love euu.
I'm trying, to remove that insecurity in euu.
I really want to.
I'm really trying hard to.
and i'm aint gonna give up.


But.
Is it me trying not hard enough.
or just.
I'm not good enough for euu.
or.
Whatever i do,
just doesnt seem to help.



I wont ever let go.
I wont ever get tired.
I will never bid goodbye to euu.
This is my promise to euu.





No matter how hard this journey is gonna be.
I'll hold on.
Even if it means sacrificing my life.